Signed "Big Baby" Print 12 x 18

This Big Baby print will be hand signed. The 12 x 18 print is on high quality art paper. Print will have a half inch border. The limited hand signed print will be number 1-50.

When my mother died suddenly in 2014, I felt a feeling that I’ve never I’d experienced before. Emotionally I felt homelessness just sitting home. The feeing is so indescribable with words, it’s just a feeing that is. People can see this feeling on you and classify it as grief, but it’s more complex than that. Grief is not what you feel after losing a parent that birthed you, nurtured you, raised you, taught you, sacrificed for you, scolded you, sheltered you, and loved you. That unconditional love, that attachment, that tethering between mother and child doesn’t go away with death. It remains after transitioning but instead of the joy and comfort with it once brought when living, now is sharp and traumatic. I remember these beautifully vivid dreams with her in colors I’d never seen, then I’d remember waking up angry at the situation all over again. The thought pained me all the time. I thought my future was no future, my grades at OU got so bad they told me not to come back.

Through it all I’m so thankful for the lessons taught to me by both of my parents. Trusting God, knowing I have a friend in Jesus, saying “Yes mam, no mam”, “ Yes sir, no sir”, pulling my pants up, and honor and respect for all are just a few. When I would leave the house she would always say “remember who’s you are”….and sometimes I’d act like I didn’t know who’s I was, but these days I do. I belong to Jenise Harris. Love from Earth.

I created this piece because we all have mothers that brought us here and I know I couldn’t have been the only one feeling this way. This is for all of us who feel that unconditional love but can’t touch it. This is for everybody.

Inspired by pieces of an image taken by a photographer but had a different meaning.